As I sit here trying to come up with something new to write, my mind seems to be drawing a blank so I’m just going to write whatever comes.  Have you ever just sat and tried to contemplate the world around you and how you fit into it?  Today I’m doing that and trying to find my place in this world.  The reality is, I know exactly where I fit in and normally I fit that mold pretty well but today for some reason I’m fighting it.  It’s not that I don’t love what I’ve built for myself, or the surroundings I have – to the contrary.  I think today I just need a bit of respite from it.  A moment or two to myself to reflect on the things I want out of life, and time to do them.

The list of things I want to do is very long and when reality starts to set in, I find myself having to cut some of them out.  It’s incredibly discouraging especially when each item on my list contains some form of personal growth, learning, or advancement.  See I’m a firm believer in doing things which expand your horizons and teach you something new.  That is my own personal brand of fun.  If I’m not learning or being challenged, life holds no interest for me.

Of course the problem with constantly needing to be challenged is sometimes you get your wish – to the max.  Right now the challenges are even at an extreme for someone like me.  I’ll survive it, you’d really be amazed at what you can live through.   This is far from the worst thing I’ve ever had to go through and it’s not likely to be the last either.  So what’s the point of this post now that I’ve gotten from beginning to end?  I suppose it’s just to illustrate even the most motivated, head strong or even “together” people have off days.  Days where being “together” just isn’t in the cards.  It doesn’t mean there is something wrong with us or we’ve finally lost it, but rather we all need a day to let go and not hold it together, just so we can keep it contained the rest of the time.

Days like this are good, it reminds me I’m not always in control of my surroundings and occasionally it’s okay to let someone else carry the burden or pick up the pieces.  I’m an over-achiever, a workaholic, a thinker and more.  But sometimes I have to remind myself it’s really okay to let things slide and not pretend I’m super-human.  Grounding myself firmly in the moment vs. three moments ahead.

So, “Let the Wild Rumpus Begin”, it’s time to let loose and enjoy the now – at least until tomorrow when I go back to being responsible!

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